December 7, 2006

A month after

High and low High and Low
One moment I'm there, next I'm here
Every breath, every move, every little thing,
It was all written
When I'm no longer there
Just hope my apologies accepted
Thank you... my friends
Ukhuwah fillah... abadan abada.

-Wani Z, 0812, 07122006-

November 4, 2006

Ummah Films Season 2 Premiere

Salam... for those who have been waiting for The Reminder Season 2... This is a good topic to start with :)

October 30, 2006

Eid and Exams

Salam alaik...

Ahh... the sweetness of finishing exam early. Yup, I've finished my exam this afternoon.
(Most haven't even started yet, I think)

This is the third time I've spent my Eid here.
But it's the first time I have exam paper on the day itself. (Some ppl on the other part of the world said 'Welcome to our world, Wani' :p )
Nevertheles, it still felt like Eid and I don't really mind that I have an exam on the day.
I mean, some people celebrate Eid in the middle of war-zone... Who am I to compare?

I'd like to apologize to people whom I could not go to their open-houses in the past week, or to those who text'd me, wishing Eid Mubarak yet I still haven't replied them.
I'd also like to thank those who invited me.
Among the invitations that I've to go to, one was a distant relative. At last I met them ^_^

Some people asked, are you celebrating tonight?
Celebrate? I don't think so. There are still thousands of things to be done, a few promises to be made, a couple of things to settle and most importantly, one book to be finished (before I go home)

4th year Medicine of UWA has officially finished today.
I hope we all passed and proceed to 5th year in Jan 07... insyaAllah...

Malaysia, I'm coming home soon...

On the other note, safe journey for my youngest brother who's going to Yaman this Thursday, insyaAllah... Hazwan, bring back loads of knowledge and teach me what you've learnt!

October 17, 2006

This is me

I was blog-hopping when an entry reminded me of my past and I took a sneak-peek.

Smiling and laughing, I kinda missed those moments.

Till I snapped about almost an hour later.

That was me in the past.

This is me. Now.
This is how I choose to be.

October 15, 2006

Salam perantauan

Taken from:
Salam Aidilfitri (in Utusan), from warga Perth

I was not in the picture however- Couldn't join the trip to Yanchep with them earlier this year.

Eid Mubarak, everyone!

Are we now?

"The move is a sign of the Islamic country's submission to persistent U.S. pressures to persuade Islamic states change religious education syllabus claiming that such changes would help contain the spread of radical views and limit the increase of terrorism.

Among the changes the Moroccan government made, was removing a picture of a mother and her daughter wearing Hijab, the Islamic headscarf, from the latest editions of a text book.

Also a verse from the Qur'an where it asks Muslim girls to wear the Hijab has been taken out of the books.

Abdelkarim El Houichre from the Association of Teachers of Islamic Education expressed doubts about the government's motives:

"I think there is pressure coming from the United States, which believes that teaching about traditional Islam and teaching girls to wear headscarves will somehow encourage extremism and terrorism," he said "

More on:
Morocco changes religious syllabus

So our freedom of practicing religious belief now has to be compromised by this so called 'terror'?
Why do you have to provoke anger and ridiculousness?
So much of freedom and rights... the one country that's known for voicing rights is now being very narrow-minded.

October 11, 2006

Madrasah Ramadhan

Her dark eyes were fixed onto the computer screen. Her brain was working fast- absorbing, digesting and letting every word sink deeply into her processing chamber. Minutes ticked and her face scrunched up into a deep frown.

'Where has this girl gone?' The question kept repeating itself at the back of her mind.
As she read more and more of the past 2 years entry of her journal, more questions arose.

'What happened? What has gone wrong in the past year?
What made it change?
How did she become worse?
Has it been slowly progressing for the past 10 months? Or has she always been like this?

'This is not who I want to be! This is not who I worked to be!' She thought disgustedly.

Her gaze snapped towards the mirror next to her study table.
'I don't know who you are anymore' She whispered softly.
'You are not the same person anymore. When?' She asked silently. 'When has everything changed? Why was the personality so different as day and night?'
Or was this person really herself? Has she not recognized it before?
Has she not noticed it before?

It's weird- the different things she always recite in her dua and the different things she's portraying in her character.

"You failed yourself." She told the reflection in the mirror.

She realized now that everything went down hill faster when she thought her friends were purposely hurting her. That night, she recalled, she cried herself to sleep- believing there's no one anymore to listen; no one except the Creator of the Holy Book she was reciting while sobbing till she fell asleep.

The next day, she felt numb and retaliate silently at everything and everyone. She fell back faster into her old-self- hooked up with some of her worse habbits back then and distinctively feeling the feelings she poured in her poem back then- 'Feels like Being Left Alone'.
How long ago was that? 6 years ago? That long, huh?

Ironically, it felt worse this Ramadhan. This Ramadhan was not like last years. No significant better difference and she kept wondering why.
Admittedly, she knows she's an emotional wreck. And she hated it. She needs to solve her problems. She doesn't want to let this Ramadhan goes before settling her emotions, character and attitude.

There's no guarantee that she'll see the next Ramadhan and it will be a total waste if she keeps on wallowing in her darkness without trying to capture the light.

"I want to change –no- I NEED to change" she voiced out loudly. It reverberated throughout her room.

'I am going to change. I will not let 3 years of hardworking waste away. I will change my attitude for the better. I wish for a better character and I will work for it.
It's time to leave this nonsense behind.
It's time to throw this jahiliyah away.
It will be hard, but it will be worth it!'

She took a pen and a paper and started to jot what she wants to achieve before the next Ramadhan, hopefully by the end of this Ramadhan.

This is 'Madrasah Ramadhan' for her.
Wahh.... lamanya tak 'menulis'. I used to have this 'itchiness' to write a fic/poem back then.... sekarang dah tak de... And tetiba datang balik... 'tangan gatal nak menulis' :p

October 9, 2006

History of Medicine

I was doing one of my Infectious Disease lectures while waiting to break the fast, when I stumbled across this:

2000 BC- Here, eat this root
1000 AD- That root is heathen. Here, say this prayer.
1850 AD- That prayer is superstition. Here, drink this potion.
1940 AD- That potion is snake oil. Here, swallow this pill.
1985 AD- That pill is ineffective. Here, take this antibiotic.
2000 AD- That antibiotic doesn't work anymore. Here, eat this root.

I laughed.

October 8, 2006

Insan Utama

My mood's up to listen to this song...
Somehow, it motivates me to do some studying :)

Listen to: "Insan Utama" (click to download)
Munsyid: Haddad Alwi

Engkau mengenalnya
Insan yang utama (Siapakah kiranya?)
Lelaki pilihan
Menjadi utusan
Ia menunjukan
Jalan kebenaran (Muhammad kukira)

Baik hatinya (Baik hatinya)
Santun perangainya (Sungguh santun perangainya)
Jujur katanya (Tak pernah dusta)
Kita menyayangnya (Bersholawatlah baginya)
Ia teladan bagi kita semua (Ia-lah teladan kita)
Sebagai karunia yang diberikan Allah bagi semua
Muhammad nama-nya
Ikuti jalan-nya
La la la...

October 5, 2006

UMMA Community Clinic

This almost brings me to tears. (Thanks to a friend for putting this video up in the weblog)

October 4, 2006

Fuel Watch

TEN News reported that the fuel price will keep on plummetting till probably reach the lowest AUD 1 early next year.
We've seen the effects now.

I'm happy.
Can save up on my petrol budget *YaY*

October 2, 2006

News of Friday

We had our Iftar at UWA musalla on Friday night, then tarawikh there afterwards.
Everything seemed normal.
And we had Iftar at our friend's place, organized by WAPEC last night.
Only then did I know.
There was a drive-by shooting at Mirabooka mosque during tarawikh on Friday night!
Even though nobody was reported seriously injured (though their mind would be traumatized), I still can't believe that it happened very near to us, in Perth! In Ramadhan, a holy month, nontheles!
What are they trying to invoke? A terror? While we are peacefully praying?

"A WOMAN has told how a bullet missed her head by 5cm when it was fired into a mosque in a drive-by shooting.

Ahdielah Edries, 38, was on the second storey of the Mirrabooka mosque, north of Perth, on Friday night when an unknown gunman fired a shot through the window.
"We were in the middle of praying ... I was in front of the window. I heard what seemed like a massive explosion and felt something go past my ear," Ms Edries said..."

More on: Mosque targeted in drive-by shooting

September 27, 2006

The Way of Love

The Way of Love- Hadad Alwi
(Download here - Credit to Intan, I fell in love with this nasyid)

The Prophet's Path, the Way of Love
Only by this Love you'll rise above
Like a dove that's been set free
Love with longing is the key
This love with longing is the key

Honey, nectar, sweetness and cream
Orchids blooming by a mountain stream
Starlit skies and waves on the sand
Next to love they can't stand
Next to this love they cannot stand

Yaa Robii yaa sarii'ar ridho irham man ro-su maalihir-rojaa
Wa thina maa qod sa-alnaa bi liqoo-i khoiril anaami,
Yaa khoiral a'anaami

The Prophet's Path, the Way of Love
Only by this Love you'll rise above
Like a dove that's been set free
Love with longing is the key
This love with longing is the key

Honey, nectar, sweetness and cream
Orchids blooming by a mountain stream
Starlit skies and waves on the sand
Next to love they can't stand
Next to this love they cannot stand

(How can I find a way to express
Something that cannot be thought or guessed
Something more than just words
This love is neither seen nor heard
This love is neither seen nor heard

Love is the rope Given by Allah
It will save you from every flaw
Grasp it then He will draw you near)

Yaa man-ismuhu dawa wa dzikruhu syifaa-un lana
Robbiy faj'al mujtama'na ghoyatuhu husnul khitami
Bihusnul khitami

Tengah menelek-nelek tarikh untuk balik Malaysia... Chosen date is on weekdays, which means kena tunggu weekend baru boleh balik Sg. Petani.

Apa yang boleh dibuat for the rest of the week while waiting for Sat/Sun?
Beraya rumah orang? (Sementara tengah minggu 2/3 raya)
Apa yang biasanya dibuat tahun-tahun lepas?? Mengimbau kembali...


I'm threading on a sensitive line.
This was usually the time I went and visit my grandma.
But she's no longer here...

P/s- Exam's less than a month time. I won't be updating as much. Ramadhan kareem to all.

September 21, 2006

Allahumma Balighna Ramadhan

Only 2 more days and we'll come into Ramadhan al-Mubarak... Can't wait! The article below is one that I copied from Dakwah Info. Happy reading, may it be a reminder for us:

"Sedar ataupun tidak, bulan suci mulia yang telah kita tinggalkan lalu dengan penuh pengabdian dan keazaman untuk peningkatan sebagai seorang Muslim yang benar-benar menyerah, tunduk patuh kepadaNya bakal menjelang tiba. Maha Suci Allah yang telah mengurniakan umur yang setahun lebih panjang dengan mengurniakan kita sekali lagi Ramadhan, untuk kita koreksi diri, pertambahkan iman dan persiapkan kekuatan dan bekalan. Seperti doa yang biasa kita ucapkan; Allahumma Ballighna Ramadhan. Seperti doa yang diajarkan Rasulullah saw kepada kita;

Apabila Rasulullah saw melihat anak bulan Rejab, baginda membaca,
"Ya Allah, rahmatilah kami dengan Rejab dan Syaaban, dan sampaikan kepada kami Ramadhan." (Hadith riwayat at-Tabrani dan Ahmad)

Betapa besar kurniaan Allah kepada kita di dalam bulan Ramadhan, dimana Rasulullah telah mengajarkan kita untuk berdoa agar kita dihidupkan sehingga sampai bulan Ramadhan, supaya bulan itu dimanfaatkan untuk kita menjadi seorang hamba yang patuh kepadaNya.

Bagi para daie ilallah, peluang mengecapi Ramadhan sememangnya ditunggu, di kala tamatnya Ramdhan yang lepas dengan penuh tangisan ketakwaan dan air mata keinsafan. Bulan bukan sekadar nikmat, tetapi penuh ujian serta peluang amal dakwah untuk mendekatkan manusia pada jalan Allah swt.

Persediaan dan perancangan perlulah dilakukan untuk kita memaksimumkan segala peluang yang di bulan Ramadhan ini. Sebagaimana yang dimaklumi, amal kebajikan akan diganjarkan setingkat lebih tinggi jika ia dilakukan pada bulan Ramadhan. Yang sunat diberi pahala wajib. Yang wajib digandakan dengan gandaan sesuai dengan kurniaan Allah swt Yang Maha Kaya.

Ketika Ramadhan menjelang, Rasulullah saw bersabda bermaksud, "Wahai manusia, menjelang tiba bulan agung lagi berkat. Bulan yang di dalamnya ada satu malam yang lebih baik dari 1000 bulan. Sesiapa yang mendekatkan dirinya dengan mengerjakan amalan Fardhu, seolah-olah dia telah mendapat 70 pahala Fardhu di bulan-bulan yang lain. Sesiapa yang mendekatkan dirinya dengan amalam-amalan Sunat, seolah-olah dia mendapat pahala amalan-amalan Fardhu di bulan-bulan yang lain. Ia adalah bulan sabar. Ia adalah bulan yang awalnya rahmat, tengahnya keampunan dan akhirnya selamat dari Neraka..." (Riwayat Ibn Khuzaimah)

Antara persiapan yang perlu dilakukan menjelang Ramadhan ialah:

1) Memahirkan diri dengan segala rukun,sunat,harus,makruh yang berkaitan dengan puasa di bulan Ramadhan, sunat tarawih dan lain-lain lagi.

2) Membiasakan diri bangun pada sepertiga malam untuk bertahajjud, untuk mendekatkan diri pada Allah, dan membiasakan tahajjud di bulan Ramadhan.

3) Memperuntukkan beberapa jumlah wang untuk dijadikan sedekah jariah dan zakat fitrah. Bagi mereka yang telah akil baligh, maka belajarlah membayar zakat fitrah sendiri.

4) Menyediakan diri dengan kurang makan dan berpuasa, namun perlu diingat dengan sabda Nabi saw dari Abu Hurairah;
"Janganlah kamu berpuasa sehari atau dua hari sebelum tiba bulan Ramadan melainkan orang yang biasa berpuasa dengan puasa yang tertentu maka bolehlah dia berpuasa" (riwayat Muslim)

5) Strategi tersusun untuk memperbanyakkan hafalan, bacaan, tadabbur, tadarrus al-Quran. Pada bulan ini kita mempunyai kelebihan kerana musuh ketat manusia telah di rantai, sebagaimana sabda Rasulullah saw dari Bau Hurairah;
"Apabila tiba bulan Ramadan, dibuka pintu-pintu Syurga dan ditutup pintu-pintu Neraka serta syaitan-syaitan dibelenggu."(riwayat Muslim)

6) Melatih diri semua sifat Islamiah seperti sabar, kurang bercakap lagha dan keji, menjauhi mengumpat dan mengata, dan perbanyakkan senyuman kepada semua sahabat.

Jadi sahabat sekalian, sematkan azam masing-masing untuk kita memperbanyakkan amalan fardhi dan amalan dakwah kita di bulan Ramadhan yang bakal tiba beberapa hari sahaja lagi. Persiapkan mental mulai sekarang dan tekunlah istiqamah dengannya.

Doa kita..Allahumma Balligna Ramadhan...amen..."

Zura and Diana's Graduation Day:

Diana & Zura's Graduation

September 19, 2006

White Tulips

I was thinking of uploading the photos after I've taken all the photos from the other girls. Obviously that's not going to happen soon, so I've uploaded what's mine.

For the first time our trip has to be divided into two seperate days, although we were all going to the same place- Araluen Botanic Garden. Blame it on the different spring break period between UWA and Curtin. I ended up joining the Curtin's group one Sunday earlier than the UWA's group.

Hopefully next year we can ALL go together again... Enjoy the pictures- the flowers are lovely, subhanallah! I fell in love with the white tulips...

Araluen Trip '06

~Nothing could describe this happy feelings when two of the original 2002 batch of Pet scholars came to Perth for graduation. I was 'lepaking' with Diana one evening and we were catching up on old and new stories when suddenly we realized one thing- our topics has moved from studies and girl stuff to career and future...

Almost 5 years have past... where did the years gone to?

Coming soon: Diana & Zura's Graduation Day

September 7, 2006

To You... in the end I return

It's not easy to make decision. I guess that's a fact.
One minute you're ok with it, the next second you feel like changing your mind
I guess part of it is because you can't see what's in store for you in the future if you make that decision.
Fear of the unknown.
Then you start to debate with your mind.
Feelings vs rationality.
Mind vs heart.
Emotion vs logical thinking.

In what ever way I turned, in whatever excuses I came up with;
He will always win.

"Ya Allah, I leave my life in Your hand... I submit to You... You know what is best for me, for I strive as best as I can, and to You in the end I return..."

September 5, 2006


Just thought I'd post this to any Malaysian in Perth who wants to join in.

Karnival Malaysia Merdeka Perth 2006 Sempena Sambutan Kemerdekaan Malaysia ke-49 & Majlis Perjumpaan YB Menteri Pengajian Tinggi Bersama Pelajar di Perth, Western Australia

Tarikh : 10 September 2006
Hari : Ahad
Masa : 2:30 pm
Tempat : Belmont Oasis Leisure Centre, Corner of Abernethy & Alexander, Belmont WA

It will follow with 'Majlis YB Menteri Bersama Pelajar' at 6.30 and will end at approximately 8.30 p.m.

September 2, 2006


I thought they would never take my blood
Considering the circumstances
But they did

*Happy* ^_^

10 Sahabat Yang dijanjikan Masuk Syurga

Saiyyidina Abu Bakar As Siddiq r.a.
Khalifah Pertama, Teman Setia Yang Banyak Berkorban

Saiyyidina Umar Al Khattab r.a.
Khalifah Kedua, Pintar Membezakan Antara Haq dan Batil

Saiyyidina Uthman bin Affan r.a.
Khalifah Ketiga, Keperibadian Yang Sampai Malaikat Berasa Malu

Saiyyidina Ali bin Abi Talib r.a.
Khalifah Keempat, Singa Allah Yang Dimuliakan Wajahnya Oleh Allah

Saiyyidina Talhah bin Ubaidillah r.a.
Shahid Yang Hidup

Saiyyidina Zubair bin Al Awwam r.a.
Perajurit Allah Pengiring Rasulullah

Abdul Rahman bin Auf r.a.
Orang Yang Berniaga Dengan Allah

Saiyyidina Saad bin Abi Waqas r.a.
Pelempar Panah Pertama Pada Jalan Allah

Saiyyidina Ubaidah Amir bin Al Jarrah r.a.
Orang Kepercayaan Ummat Ini

Saiyyidina Said bin Zaid r.a.
Seorang Kekasih Kepada Allah Pengasih

Taken from [Credit to Najwa ^^]]

August 30, 2006


Bagi mereka yang mencari saya pada 28 Ogos lepas, minta maaf banyak-banyak sebab ketiadaan diri saya di rumah...
Ada beberapa perkara teknikal yang terpaksa diuruskan yang menyebabkan saya keluar...

Maaf sekali lagi....

August 27, 2006

Path To Jannah

I fell in love again.

With His Messenger s.a.w....

This afternoon in Path To Jannah

I was gone for a while, if you haven't notice...
Don't ask me why; just take it as a way for me to...
ber-'uzlah' I guess.

And during that time, I kind of lost my mood of blogging
Maybe I won't do as much, considering exam in less than 2 months
And for other various reasons


Oh, by the way, this layout is only a temp... till I find what I like

August 17, 2006


Some people asked what I want for my birthday
Truthfully, there are so many things that I want... Some are within reach, but I refused to have them because I'm in no need for them, some had been reached but slipped away that I wish I can get them back as my presents, some can't even be reached, or can't be reached yet...

Cukuplah jika kalian dapat menghadiahkan Al-Fatihah buat diri ini...
Itu lebih bermakna buat saya.

Buat mereka yang berkenaan, saya memahami perasaan anda, la tahzan:
"Hai orang yang beriman, mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan bersabar dan solat, sesungguhnya Allah berserta orang-orang yang bersabar... Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang yang bersabar, (yaitu) orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah, mereka mengucapkan "Innalillahi wa innaa ilaihi raaji'uun" (AlBaqarah (2): 153, 155-156)
I stumbled across this ayah, in the moments when we really need it... alhamdulillah


The other day, one of my med friend asked me, "Are you a good practicing Muslim?"
I didn't know why she promted that question. But my answer was "Yes, I am a practicing Muslim."
Then I said, "What's the point of having a religion if you don't practice it?"

By the way, Islam is not just a religion.
It's more than that- a system of life, and religion is only part of that system.

Yes, I am a practicing Muslim, and I'm proud of that.

August 15, 2006


Salam alaik,

Finished my Surgery rotation. Now I'm with RPH/Bentley (yes, Bently Hosp) for Geriatric- 'elderly' medicine.

So here I was, sitting in Blue CAT (free bus transport within the city area) to go home. At the stop number 19, a few people got in. There was this one lady, cheerful- who greeted everyone and anyone. When all the passengers are in, I realized that there were 2 carers with a few special adults who just got in.

From what I can guess, these are adults of the age probably around 30s... and one 60s I think, and my heart went to them.
These are the innocent people, as innocent as a baby.
These are special persons...

Sometimes, we take things for granted. We are blessed with high IQ (you are studying in uni aren't you? Isn't that a proof enough?), we're blassed with the ability to think, speak, see and hear.
So have we used our abilities to seek knowledge, to think and to learn?

IT IS GOD who has created the heavens and the earth and all that is between them in six aeons, and is established on the throne of His almightiness.
You have none to protect you from God, and none to intercede for you [on Judgment Day]: will you not, then, bethink yourselves? [As-Sajjadah (32):4]

And in that [hell] they will cry aloud: "O our Sustainer! Cause us to come out [of this suffering]! We shall [henceforth] do good deeds, not such as we were wont to do [aforetime]!" [But We shall answer:] "Did We not grant you a life long enough so that whoever was willing to take thought could bethink himself? And [withal,] a war­ner had come unto you! Taste, then, [the fruit of your evil deeds]: for evildoers shall have none to succour them!" [Faathir (35): 37]

Will you not, then, bethink yourselves? [As-Saffat (37):155]

August 11, 2006

August 10, 2006

Perth event: Islamic Polsci Lectures

Salam alaik,

I should have posted this earlier, but I kinda forgot to do it.... We went to Dr. Ali Paul White's first lecture last night, and it was really good and informative. It was straight to the point and really reminded us of those that we have forgotten.

It's really really recommended to go and listen to! I urge you, those who are living or are in Perth to come- both Muslim and non-Muslim.

Islamic Enrichment Night: "MY JOURNEY TO ISLAM"
THURSDAY 10TH AUGUST (After Magrib ~ 6:10)
UWA Mussollah.

Building 405, Lecture Room 201, Nursing, Curtin University, Bentley.

Dr. Ali Paul White holds a PhD in Political Science (Middle East Politics) from Macquarie University. He is published in international scholarly journals and has presented at international and Australian conferences. He lectures extensively among Muslim youth in Australia's major cities, in his capacity of the community initiative Muslims For Peace (MFP).

Throughout his academic career, he has designed and taught courses in Middle East Politics, and the Politics of Middle Eastern Religions. His teaching includes the foundations of International Politics and Political Islam.
He has taught the contemporary experience of Islam in the West (especially in Australia and France), as manifested in debates around terrorism, hijab and refugees, and the emerging debates on secularism and resurgent Muslim and 'Christian Right' 'fundamentalisms'.
He is also experienced in teaching the evolution of Islamic political thought. He has taught courses on the countries of the Middle East - especially Iran, Turkey and Lebanon, as well as about the Kurds.

Any questions can be directed to Ihsan Kamarulzaman (Public Relations Officer, UWAMSA Committee 2006) on 0401 664 884.

August 7, 2006

Syukran & Afwan

Jazakillah, syukran... thanks a million- from the bottom of my heart,
Buat 'anak-anak ayam' yang telah cuba untuk menghiburkan diri ini :D

Afwan & beribu-ribu kemaafan
Buat 'anak-anak ayam' kerana mungkir janji pada hari ini (Isnin, bersamaan dengan 7 Ogos 2006)
Buat sisters as-syifa' atas kegagalan menghantar assigment, maka memungkiri janji...

I am only a human...
Masih perlukan bimbingan dan peringatan...
Harap anda masih dapat bersabar dengan kerenah diri ini

August 2, 2006


I remember two years ago when I spent some nights at one of my friend's place, her father said to me, "Look at Islam and its people as a whole. Look at our similarities, and not difference, not if we are sunni or shiite, but as Muslim, who follow Al-Quran and As-Sunnah. As how we welcome you at our home, that's how you should welcome us at your house..."

Yes, they are shiite.

The world is aware of the endless attacks the Israelis doing on Lebanon. Yet, in the world of muslims, trivial issues of Hizbullah is shiite arose. I frowned to read some of the comments on the net. Why are we diverting from the real issue here? How can you still argue who's right and not when our brothers and sisters are being killed mercilessly there??!

Adakah hanya semata-mata anda Sunni, anda sudah dijanjikan syurga?

"Perlawanan bersenjata dalam kondisi seperti ini adalah amal paling utama dalam umat ini. Baik di Palestina maupun di Libanon. Tidak masalah jika perlawanan di Libanon dilakukan oleh kelompok Syiah. Karena mereka bagaimanapun adalah bagian dari umat Islam. Karena mereka termasuk ahli Laa ilaaha illallah, dan dalam banyak hal prinsip mereka satu pandangan dengan kita. Meskipun ada beberapa perbedaan dalam hal cabang." Dr. Yusuf Qardhawi: Wajib Hukumnya Dukung Hizbullah Lawan Zionis

"Now we hear a controversy about the Shiites and Sunnis; "Hezbollah is Shiite and should not be backed!" This is just a trial to justify the atrocities of the Zionists... Is Hezbollah not Muslims? Isn't it an Arab? Doesn't it resist the occupiers? Their battle is ours to free and restore the Muslim and Arab lands and prisoners." IM: The MB's attitude towards resistance

July 27, 2006


Teringat PPD (Personal and Professional Development) seminar minggu sudah, tentang 'Resource Allocation'.
The speaker started with 'what is rights'?
Katanya 'we don't have rights because we claim it, but because we have certain properties to it'.

Kalau begitu, kalau kita menurut tafsiran mereka yang bijak pandai ini, seorang Muslim mempunyai hak-hak sebagai seorang Muslim, bukan kerana kita harus tuntut akannya ('claim it') tetapi kerana memang sudah semulajadinya itulah hak kita.

Mengikut tafsiran ini then, seorang Muslim mempunyai hak untuk menunaikan apa yang tertakluk di dalam Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah, kerana itulah apa yang ditinggalkan oleh Baginda Rasulullah s.a.w. untuk kaum Muslimin, which directly means itulah apa yang Allah suruh- and that includes cara ekonomi, sistem perundangan, pendidikan, malahan seluruh hidup Muslim itu tertakluk atas 'rights as a Muslim'.

Yes, my friend, that also includes one's aqidah and the whole consequences of 'terpesong dari akidah'...
Ianya bukan persoalan 'freedom of choice' tetapi persoalan 'tidak menjalankan hak sebagai seorang Muslim'.


"..Dia telah memilih kamu dan Dia sekali-kali tidak menjadikan untuk kamu dalam agama suatu kesempitan..." Al-Hajj (22): 78

July 25, 2006

Thought this might be interesting:

So sad, yet so true. Open our eyes, please!

Nafsu memang mahukan kelalaian... bisikan syaitan akan sentiasa menemani, namun jika kita meletakkan iman dan akal di atas, ia akan mengawal nafsu, menepis pujukan syaitan, insyaAllah!


It wasn't that cold yesterday morning, I noted when I was going out to the hospital. Looking up, the sky was painted with dark grey- a tell tale sign that heavy rain maybe was coming.

We were doing ward round, were in one of the patients' room when a sudden shrill ring of a bell alerted the whole ward. Being new in hospital setting (and having no experience of that kind of scenario before), I was a bit confused when one of the doctors in my team and the nurses broke into a run out of the room.

It only took me a second to realize that somewhere in the ward, there was a code blue- someone might have cardiac arrest at that moment.

"The first rule that you have to know with code blue- run" My surgeon said as we hurried to the spot.

I was wondering who could the patient be when someone mentioned a name and I realized that it was our patient! When we reached there, I met with a scene that I've never seen before. Everybody was hurriedly preparing all the equipments to resuscitate the patient, the doctors alternately doing CPR and my surgeon yelling out instructions.
It was intense.

Being only a fourth year medical student, my collegues and I felt helpless. We wanted to help, yet we didn't want to get in the way, in fear that we'll slow the resuscitation process. At least I felt a bit useful when someone yelled asking the patient's file and instantly I broke into a run to get it from the staff at the front desk; and my friends ran to retrieve stuff they needed from the preparation room.

They called it off after some time.

It was still early in the morning to have everything worked up... And I realized the importance of CPR skills and having it at the tip of your fingers- so that when you face with the same sort of situation, you'll instantly know what to do and not taking time to remember 'what should I do nex?'

As I was thinking about this, I realized yet again, this is a reminder from Him that life is short. It could be our patient this time around, maybe next is me? Or maybe next is you?

If CPR is important to be embedded in our mind, so that we will be prepared next time, we must also realized that we have to be prepared if we're at the receiving end. Meaning, if it is us who's facing death. Have we done enough to save us from the hell fire, or do we always brush it off with "It's ok, I'm still young. When the time comes, I'll do goods to prepare myself"?

My friend, Death doesn't care if you're 3 weeks old, 19 years of age, or 21 or if you're in your 50s or 80s. When it's time for you to go, as per written in Luh Mahfuz, you can't even delayed it by second. Everybody wants to die in a good situation, but does ourselves, our deed, our character and attitude matched our wish?

Think about it...

At around 3 p.m., I noticed that there's a messaged in my phone. It was from my mom- Tok yong (my grand aunt) meninggal tengah hari tadi. Sedekahkan fateha untuknya.

Innalillahiwainna ilaihiraaji'un.....

July 20, 2006

One sentence

I was taught how to do suture by my registrar in the theatre today


July 16, 2006

Memorly Lane

Wina's staying over:

//Dinner @ Analakshmi & home-made orange smoothies

My dad and sister's visit:

//Kings Park & Caversham

//Kings Park & UWA

And a lil more at the right navigator- Lunch at Kailis, Freo & City at night
More to come once I've done uploaded all in Flickr (which is when, don't even ask me)

These are some of the memories that I'm trying to collect...
Very different from what's experienced by my brothers and sisters in Palestine and Iraq...

Waves [Ombak]

Here I am
in this boat
Floating on the calm sea

When the sky gets dark
And the smell of storm coming
I am floating away from the shore

Someone pull me back!
I am furthering away


Keeps on praying... so that I will stay on the correct path

Drifted away...
I am thankful you pulled me in, again
You are my silent anchors
Stay... stay with me
Keep on reminding me

Dear true friends,
Uhibbuki fillah!

July 14, 2006


Someone asked me why haven't I updated my blog. Two reasons:
- I am busy... (Out of the house by 6.45/6.50 a.m, and back home at around 4-5 p.m)
- I have absolutely nothing to jot in here

There you go... maybe till I finish surgery, this weblog will be updated once in a blue moon

Drabble of the day (not out of fiction, but out of experience)

1. For the first time in 4 years and 2 months I'm here in Perth, only the other day I finally saw dolphins in the river!!! I was in the train to Fremantle when it reached the bridge connecting North Fremantle and Fremantle and there was a river which opens to the sea when I saw a few dolphins surfaced and leaped.
It was exciting (can you hear the excitement????)
I thought up till I've graduated and go back home, I'm never gonna see dolphins around!

2. Wednesday was an amputation day. I was in theatre with one of my collugues and all we saw that day was amputations and debriment... Interesting, although in the end I was beat up.

3. Catched up with Tasha on Wednesday night- went to her place with Wina. Tasha's birthday was the day before, hence the visit. Also, I felt guilty for not having to visit her family yet this year. It was a wonderful night.

4. Didn't have enough sleep the past few days, so on Thursday night, I slept from 7.30 in the evening till 5 in the morning!! Woke up on today with headache though- too much sleep...

5. Went to Kaleya Hospital with Zainab this afternoon... One of the surgeon had operation there- repair of hernia was the one that caught my interest (since I'm in Vascular -the blood vessels- Team, I saw a lot of vessels and lower limbs). For your info, Kaleya used to be a private hospital, but now it's under Fremantle Hospital, hence it's a public hospital. When Zainab and I went in there, we were like 'Whoa... this is no hospital, this is more like a luxirious hotel!!'.
It is.
I wouldn't mind working in places like that. :D And the staff were so nice!

6. [weather report] Last few days were the coldest in this winter I reckon. I had three layers of clothes including one thick coat, and yet it was still cold- to the bone. Once, it was minus 3, I think, in the morning... Not to forget, walking from the train station to hospital too... Brrrr
Today was not as cold... but it rained. Alhamdulillah... we need that rain..

And with that last bit, ladies and gentlemen, I end my entry.

June 30, 2006

Friday Post (I can't think of an entry's tittle)

5.30 a.m.- A Toyota Tarago pulled in at Mounts Bay Apartment parking lot to pick up a few girls. Soon, they went to Bently to gather, rearranging stuff and then will depart for down south of Western Australia.

This is the start of Winter Sonata 2006...
*sob sob*
Wargh!! Nak ikut!!!!

Since I have no winter break-wahat-so-ever, I can't join this trip.
On the other hand, I was asked to scrubbed in two days ago for a femoral-peroneal bypass on a patient, and helped with tiny tiny little stuff in the operation- which I was glad.

Then yesterday, we had the chance to watch an above-knee-amputation on another patient... It reminded me of the lectures that Dr. Salam (from Doctors for Iraq) gave, about how they do not have the adequate facilities, anaesthetic etc there because of the occupation now... I cringed to imagine this kind of operation to be done only under local anaesthetic.

Tonight, I'll be joining the intern for the night shift...

June 26, 2006

Monday Post

Most days last week was spent as Intan's place. (Yes, that includes the sleepover). And finally on Friday and Saturday night, Kme, Fit and Ijan decided to join as well (along with people from Curtin, who had been there since Wednesday night). It was full house- even felt like kat kampung on Sunday morning, where some where busy eating breakfast, going in and out of the toilet, cooking lunch and generally chatting.

UWAMSA (UWA Muslim Student Association) organized lunch at Matilda Bay (sisters only). It was a great outdoor lunch (despite the fact that I was too tired- had only 2 hours sleep the night before for trying to finish up some homework)
After sending the girls home, called Alia who was at Harbour Town. To confirm some things, I decided to drive there. Not wanting to go alone, I dragged Sharan and Salwa with me. On the way, my car started to make this high pitch sound... In the end, we stopped at a carpark somewhere in Northbridge (I missed the turn to go into Harbour Town... sheesh)

While I was contemplating what to do, a car pulled off and this man asked if we need any helped. Told him what happened and he looked at the engine. "I think it's your alternator. Are you with any insurance or some sort?" "RAC" I said. "Yeah, best to call them, or drive home if you live around here then call them."
'Thank you pakcik baik'
So we called RAC and gave them details (I wasn't really sure where we were because when I missed the turn into Harbour Town, we got off track for a while... was thinking finding a place to do U-turn and go back to Harbour Town when decided it was better to stop as the sound got worse)

RAC Roadside Assistant came about 40 minutes after... Fixed it (alternator belt was loose or something), then we're fixed to go home... Alhamdulillah... I was so thankful with that!
'Thank you so much, pakcik rac!!'

In the end, we didn't get to go to Harbour Town...

Since I only got 2 hours sleep last night, I decided to sleep early to wake up very early in the morning to study. Before I got the chance to be woken up by my alarm clock, Fit called me, "Kak Wani!!! Dah bangun ke?? Kme punye flight malam ni, bukan malam esok!!!!"

Laaaaaa.... budak kecik ni.... Macam mane boleh salah tarikh...

So, off we go to the airport (it was 12.40 a.m. when we got there)
Surprise surprise... Royal Brunei was delayed to 4.30 p.m.!! So, off we go back home (Cik Kme included) at 1.10 a.m. (after I had a cup of coffee)

Make sure you claim a hotel/place to stay while waiting for connecting flight to KL from Brunei tomorrow night, yeah girl? Safe journey, insyaAllah.

I hate you! You kill my brothers and sisters, over and over again, and give lame excuses each time... Wonder why the world keeps on being fooled by you when it was so clear that you are bloody murderers??!!

Let Allah gives us strength to protect our Land, our Deen, Ameen...

June 22, 2006

Sekadar hiasan

Terkelip-kelip mataku melihat gambar-gambarmu di internet
Ayu bertudung, tersenyum sendiri diri ini
Pantas jari-jari menekan tetikus
Namun terkesima seketika melihat paparan di depanku

Memang aku tidak layak menghakimi dirimu
Hanya dengan melihat gambar-gambar itu
Tetapi tertanya-tanya diriku sendiri
Apakah suruhan Yang Maha Esa itu satu permainan buatmu?

Apakah hijab itu sekadar hiasan buatmu, sahabat?
Yang sama tarafnya dengan baju-baju yang mendedahkan aurat wanita?

Atau barangkali, disitulah terletaknya harga dirimu?

June 7, 2006

Exam Fever

Semua sibuk study sekarang.... one week study break before exam starts next week.
Hence I'd like to wish everyone ALL THE BEST in their first sem exam...

And yes, I don't have any first sem exam
However, I did have one major Psych exam in Fremantle Hospital yesterday... Glad it's over ^_^
Then I'll be having another exam (Summative Exam) on June 22nd...

Oh, and thanks for the food last Sunday yeah girls? (See pictures at the sidebar)

Abdullah bin Abbas r.a berkata: Biasa Rasulullah membaca: Allahumma laka aslamtu, wa bika aamantu, wa a'laika tawakkaltu wa ilaika anabtu, wabika khooshomtu allaahumma a'uudzu bi'izzatika laa ilaaha illaa anta antudhillanii antal hayyul ladzii laa tamuutu wal jinnu wal'insu yamuutunna...
Yang bermaksud: Ya Allah, kepada-Mu saya menyerah, percaya dan tawakal, dan kepada-Mu pula saya akan kembali, dan kerana-Mu saya berjuang. Ya Allah, saya berlindung dengan kemuliaan -Mu, yang tiada Tuhan kecuali Engkau, janganlah menyesatkan aku. Engkau yang hidup yang tidak mati, sedang jin dan manusia semua bakal mati...(Hadith Bukhari, Muslim)

Thanks Fhad for the hadith...

June 3, 2006

Why she won't wear hijab!

Received this via email... Thought it might be interesting to share this with you

Why she WON'T wear hijab!
a discussion by A.Q. Alidost

"I'm so tired"
"Tired of what?"
"Of all these people judging me."
"Who judged you?"
"Like that woman, every time I sit with her, she tells me to wear hijab."
"Oh, hijab and music! The mother of all topics!"
"Yeah! I listen to music without hijab... haha!"
"Maybe she was just giving you advice."
"I don't need her advice. I know my religion. Can't she mind her own business?"
"Maybe you misunderstood. She was just being nice."
"Keeping out of my business, that would be nice..."
"But it's her duty to encourage you do to good."
"Trust me. That was no encouragement. And what do you mean 'good' ?"
"Well, wearing hijab, that would be a good thing to do."
"Says who?"
"It's in the Qur'an, isn't it?"
"Yes. She did quote me something."
"She said Surah Nur, and other places of the Qur'an."
"Yes, but it's not a big sin anyway. Helping people and praying is more important."
"True. But big things start with small things."
"That's a good point, but what you wear is not important. What's important is to have a good healthy heart."
"What you wear is not important?"
"That's what I said."
"Then why do you spend an hour every morning fixing up?"
"What do you mean?"
"You spend money on cosmetics, not to mention all the time you spend on fixing your hair and low-carb dieting."
"So, your appearance IS important."
"No. I said wearing hijab is not an important thing in religion."
"If it's not an important thing in religion, why is it mentioned in the Holy Qur'an?"
"You know I can't follow all that's in Qur'an."
"You mean God tells you something to do, you disobey and then it's OK?"
"Yes. God is forgiving."
"God is forgiving to those who repent and do not repeat their mistakes."
"Says who?"
"Says the same book that tells you to cover."
"But I don't like hijab, it limits my freedom."
"But the lotions, lipsticks, mascara and other cosmetics set you free?! What's your definition of freedom anyway?"
"Freedom is in doing whatever you like to do."
"No. Freedom is in doing the right thing, not in doing whatever we wish to do."
"Look! I've seen so many people who don't wear hijab and are nice people, and so many who wear hijab and are bad people."
"So what? There are people who are nice to you but are alcoholic. Should we all be alcoholics? You made a stupid point."
"I don't want to be an extremist or a fanatic. I'm OK the way I am without hijab."
"Then you are a secular fanatic. An extremist in disobeying God."
"You don't get it, if I wear hijab, who would marry me?!"
"So all these people with hijab never get married?!"
"Okay! What if I get married and my husband doesn't like it? And wants me to remove it?"
"What if your husband wants you to go out with him on a bank robbery?!"
"That's irrelevant, bank robbery is a crime."
"Disobeying your Creator is not a crime?"
"But then who would hire me?"
"A company that respects people for who they are."
"Not after 9-11"
"Yes. After 9-11. Don't you know about Hanan who just got into med school? And the other one, what was her name, the girl who always wore a white hijab... ummm..."
"Yes. Yasmeen. She just finished her MBA and is now interning for GE."
"Why do you reduce religion to a piece of cloth anyway?"
"Why do you reduce womanhood to high heals and lipstick colours?"
"You didn't answer my question."
"In fact, I did. Hijab is not just a piece of cloth. It is obeying God in a difficult environment. It is courage, faith in action, and true womanhood. But your short sleeves, tight pants..."
"That's called 'fashion', you live in a cave or something? First of all, hijab was founded by men who wanted to control women."
"Really? I did not know men could control women by hijab."
"Yes. That's what it is."
"What about the women who fight their husbands to wear hijab? And women in France who are forced to remove their hijab by men? What do you say about that?"
"Well, that's different."
"What difference? The woman who asked you to wear hijab... she was a woman, right?"
"Right, but..."
"But fashions that are designed and promoted by male-dominated corporations, set you free? Men have no control on exposing women and using them as a commodity?! Give me a break!"
"Wait, let me finish, I was saying..."
"Saying what? You think that men control women by hijab?"
"Specifically how?"
"By telling women how and what to wear, dummy!"
"Doesn't TV, magazines and movies tell you what to wear, and how to be 'attractive'?"
"Of course, it's fashion."
"Isn't that control? Pressuring you to wear what they want you to wear?"


"Not just controlling you, but also controlling the market."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, you are told to look skinny and anorexic like that woman on the cover of the magazine, by men who design those magazines and sell those products."
"I don't get it. What does hijab have to do with products."
"It has everything to do with that. Don't you see? Hijab is a threat to consumerism, women who spend billions of dollars to look skinny and live by standards of fashion designed by men... and then here is Islam, saying trash all that nonsense and focus on your soul, not on your looks, and do not worry what men think of your looks."
"Like I don't have to buy hijab? Isn't hijab a product?"
"Yes, it is. It is a product that sets you free from male-dominated consumerism."
"Stop lecturing me! I WILL NOT WEAR HIJAB! It is awkward, outdated, and totally not suitable for this society... Moreover, I am only 20 and too young to wear hijab!"
"Fine. Say that to your Lord, when you face Him on Judgment Day."


"Shut up and I don't want to hear more about hijab niqab schmijab Punjab!"


She stared at the mirror, tired of arguing with herself all this time. Successful enough, she managed to shut the voices in her head, with her own opinions triumphant in victory on the matter, and a final modern decision accepted by the society, rejected by the Faith: Yes to curls on the hair, no to hijab.

"And he(/she) is indeed a failure who corrupts it [the soul]!" Holy Qur'an, 91/10

May 25, 2006


I found that I have a lot of names since starting Med here, especially since starting Clinical Years.
In the wards, I'm known as Nor, because literally, that is my first name...
When I introduce myself, some people were like: Nor? Nora? Nori?

Haha... I feel like Japanese if people call me 'Nori'

My intern heard my friends called me by 'Wani' the other day. He was like 'how come you introduce yourself to us as Nor while your friends called you Wani?? You are discriminating us' (Talk about teasing... sadly he'll be gone by the end of this week)
Ahh... another explaining to do... especially hard when on my student doctor card, it's 'Nor Zenol Ariffin' Where the heck does Wani comes from then?? (and notice that two third of it is consists of my dad's name rather than my name, haha)

That's it, I've decided... when I have children in the future, their name's only gonna be one simple word Easy!

Just for the note: At one point I was like 'No, I don't want to be called Nor anymore!! It's weeeeeiiirrrddd!!!!' T_T

Ahh... the joy of being medical student- free food (and freebies) every week! This time around I found that I can have free lunches on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday! But that is besides the point here...

Medical Grand Round last Tuesday brought on a topic of 'Drink Spiking'- Reality or exaggerated by media? It was given by a staff who did a 2 years prospective reasearch based on people presenting to ED in one hospital with this complaint.

I was coaxed by my team to come (I had to run to the main campus to settle some ISS stuff at the time) but it was really a good talk (and good food, of course). VERY interesting quote that I got from it:
"Drink spiking does occur but it's really rare (joy of what media can do for you) but the bigger problem here is binge drinking that that's what really should be targetted here (because WA just launch big campaign on drink spiking)"

My comment? Recognise the core of the problem in the first place. It's alcohol ^_^ Some people may not share the same idea though...

May 16, 2006

Apakah aku mengerti?

There was a lecture today. The speaker was the one who wrote the following article. If you have some spare time, why don't you take a little bit of it to read it? It's a bit of the gist of his lecture.
Jump to: Fallujah: the truth at last

Ah, aku tak mungkin mengerti apa yang kau lalui adikku
Aku di sini punya makanan... punya pakaian untuk ditukar hari-hari
Aku di sini punya tempat tinggal yang selesa
Punya selimut pabila malam menjelma, pabila sejuk menggigit tulangku
Aku punya ubat bila perutku sakit, bila demam menerjah
Aku punya wang untuk ke sekolah... punya buku untuk belajar, punya sekolah untuk menuntut

Tetapi tidak dirimu bukan, adikku?

Adakah kau tahu bahawa aku kini sedang belajar ilmu perubatan
Aku kini dalam tahun di mana banyak masaku di hospital, belajar dari pesakit-pesakit yang datang
Ya, hospital-hospital di sini lengkap dengan segala teknologi tercanggih, bangunannya masih utuh lengkap dengan alat pendingin,
Ubat-ubatannya sungguh banyak, kau boleh pilih
Doktor-doktornya punya waktu untuk menjenguk pesakit
Rakyat negara ini masih lagi sihat-sihat
Aku bersyukur punya pesakit untuk aku belajar... kadang kala sedih jika pesakit tidak ramai, kerana aku masih mahu belajar dari pesakit-pesakit

Namun di tempatmu, suasananya sungguh berbeza bukan, wahai adikku?
Hospital-hospital diletup dan dibom
Bekalan elektrik diputuskan, habuk-habuk berterbangan
Bekalan ubat kehabisan, malah jika ada, bukanlah ubat terbaik, malah tidak terjamin keselamatannya
Doktor-doktor bukan sahaja pergi ke negara lain atas dasar keselamatan, malahan dibunuh tanpa alasan
Rakan-rakanmu, saudara dan jiranmu entah masih hidup atau sudah dibunuh tentera laknat...

Ah... aku tidak mungkin mengerti penderitaanmu, adikku
Aku masih terlalu selesa di sini... masih lagi hidup dalam kedamaian
Aku tidak dapat mengenal erti mangsa peperangan... di sekelilingku masih lagi aman damai, bukan bunyi kereta kebal, mahupun senapang dan bom
Aku masih tidak dapat mengerti perasaanmu, yang telah kehilangan jari-jari tangan dan kakimu
Tapi aku tahu kau perit... kau tidak bersalah... tetapi kau menderita
Aku mungkin tidak mengerti penderitaanmu, tetapi aku menangis bersamamu, adikku
Aku menangis kerana aku masih disini, penuh dengan keselesaan dan kau di sana, di tengah-tengah target peluru buta
Apakah yang telah aku lakukan untukmu adikku??
Apakah aku telah melaksanakan tanggungjawabku sebagai kakak??
Apakah aku sungguh kejam?

Zainab sent us an email reminding me about the lecture by Dr. Salam Ismael, from Doctors For Iraq tonight at 6.30 p.m. And I forwarded the email to some friends.

"Thank you for coming, Wani," said the girl, who originally was from Iraq.
"It's ok."

'It's ok... this is our brothers and sisters after all, why shouldn't I come?'

May 15, 2006

A Rose for Someone Special

May 15th.... Happy Birthday Mama!
If I can send the rose for you, I would...
Is it is, I can't... So, gambar pun jadi la kan??
Found this...

Tittle: Tombo Ati
Munsyeed: Opick

Click here to listen: Tombo Ati

Tombo Ati iku limo perkorone
Kaping pisan moco Qur'an lan maknane
Kaping pindo sholat wengi lakonono
Kaping telu wong kang sholeh kumpulono
Kaping papat kudu weteng ingkang luwe
Kaping limo dzikir wengi ingkang suwe

Salah sawijine sopo iso ngelakoni
Mugi-mugi Gusti ALLOH nyembadani

Obat Hati ada lima perkaranya
Yang pertama baca Qur'an dan maknanya
Yang kedua sholat malam dirikanlah
Yang ketiga berkumpullah dengan orang sholeh
Yang keempat perbanyaklah berpuasa
Yang kelima dzikir malam perbanyaklah

Salah satunya siapa bisa menjalani
Moga-moga Gusti ALLOH mencukupi

May 14, 2006

Kena ke?

Hampir-hampir terlupa ada homework minggu ni... kena buat 'Discharge Summary' for the patient dalam PBL (Problem Based Learning) minggu lepas...
Sedang mencari-cari info... came across this:
'Tended to be shy with girls and by the age 19 has not had a steady girlfriend'
So... normal teenagers mesti ada girlfriend/boyfriend by that age la??


May 13, 2006

Alia & Fateh

Alia suka botol Fateh... ade colour hijau dan oren...
Air dalam botol fateh ada rasa-rasa epal sikit...
Alia minum dari botol Fateh
Mula-mula Fateh tak perasan... bila dia sedar, Alia tak nak pulangkan botol Fateh
Fateh mula merengek
Dipujuk dengan botol Alia...
Botol Alia tak de colour... Tapi penuh dengan air oren... Fateh haus, lalu mama Fateh beri botol Alia...
Suka la air oren dalam botol Alia! Tak tawar macam dalam botol Fateh!
Fateh minum dengan khusyuknya (bak orang kehausan diberi air)
Mama Fateh panggil Alia... Bila Alia ternampak botolnya sedang dihisap Fateh, terus mahu dicapai botolnya...

Haaa... tu la... Lain kali jangan ambil hak orang lain tanpa kebenaran ye??

Dedicated buat teman-teman yang memahami lirik ini...

Segenggam Tabah (In Team, album Tiada Lagi Kasih)

Bertali arus dugaan tiba
Menakung sebak airmata
Namun tak pernah pun setitis
Gugur berderai di pipi
Tidak ditempah hidup sengsara
Suratan nasib yang melanda
Menongkah badai bergelora
Diredah bersendirian

Bagaikan camar pulang senja
Patah sayapnya tetap terbang jua
Sekadar secicip rezeki
Buat yang sedang rindu menanti
Segenggam tabah dipertahankan
Buat bekalan di perjalanan
Kau bebat luka yang berdarah
Kau balut hati yang calar

Telah tertulis suratan nasibmu
Derita buatmu ada hikmahnya
Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu
Tak siapa tahu hatimu
Biarpun keruh air di hulu
Mungkinkah jernih di muara
Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu
Pasti bertemu tenangnya

Happy 22nd Birthday buat Yan dan Fhad (& Ima too!)
Moga tabah hati tak berbelah bagi...

May 11, 2006

Ada apa dengan 1%?

Flip-flip channel tv masa iklan siri House- ended up in Geography Channel
While mereka theorized that manusia berasal dari Afrika, kemudian berhijrah ke Asia, Amerika dan Europe, dalam kepala ini berhujah manusia kini adalah kesan dari turunnya Nabi Adam ke muka bumi..

Dan ketika mereka theorized manusia mempunyai warna kulit berbeza berdasarkan demografi tempat tinggal berasaskan teori 'natural selection' (yang kulit cerah di negara sejuk, dan kulit gelap di negara panas), dalam kepala ini berhujah Allah itu lebih Maha Mengetahui- tentulah Dia menjadikan manusia sesuai dengan suasana tempat tinggal mereka...

Dan yang lebih menarik, apabila mereka menyatakan fakta only 1% difference in human genes... mereka menyatakan sebenarnya tidak wujud 'race' atau bangsa dari sudut sains, manusia itu 'one big happy family' based on genes.
Interesting kan?
Kerana di sisi Allah, manusia itu sama... yang berbeza cuma keimanan mereka...

Maka, dari mana datang istilah 'aku bangsa lebih baik dari bangsa kamu'?

May 9, 2006

Kebah demam...

Kebah demam, walaupun batuk dan selsema masih ada
Ahh... bukan aku sorang rupanya... mama & abah dengarnya begitu
Travel tanpa henti: Kedah-KL-KT-Kedah-Kuala Selangor-Kedah kembali

Hari itu kakak datang lagi... Temankan diri ini yang terlantar di katil
Kali terakhir dia bermalam di sini waktu tahun lalu... ah, lama juga sejak kali terakhir itu!

Ahad lalu ada makan-makan di rumah teman... laksa johor + manis-manisan
Siapa sangka kena masak untuk second round!
Duduk-duduk di ruang tamu, berborak dengan teman baru yang datang dari UiTM ke sini untuk membuat elective...
Sempat juga tengok Ghulam sebelum pulang

Kebah demam kini...
meninggalkan diriku dengan kerja-kerja yang tertangguh minggu lepas...

P/s: Jazakillah for ucapan takziah...

April 30, 2006


28 hari selepas entri Itu

Hijab in OT

Sejak kebelakangan ni, email yg diterima banyak mengenai isu di atas.
Secara tak langsung, saya memerhatikan the struggles of pelajar perubatan perempuan (Muslim) di Eire yang cuba untuk mendapatkan hak mereka memakai tudung dalam Opterating Theatre (OT).

Buat masa ini mereka langsung tidak dibenarkan memakai tudung untuk menutup aurat mereka di OT dengan pelbagai alasan: 'MRSA infection'?? Bak kata Huda, tiada bukti kukuh tentang hal ini. 'You're in the West, you have to conform to our rules'?? Bukankah itu satu bentuk bridging of rights to practice religion (human rights)???

Buat masa ini, kami di Aussie (concentrating in Perth) tidak lagi mengalami masalah sebegini. Atas usaha senior kami (di Perth), kami dibenarkan memakai tudung, dengan syarat kami menukarnya setiap hari.

Jika anda adalah pelajar perubatan di mana-mana sahaja, harapnya anda dapat membantu sisters kita di Eire dengan menceritakan apa yang telah dilakukan di OT tempat anda. Mungkin ini dapat mempercepatkan proses mereka mendapatkan hak mereka. [Email saya di navigator bahagian kanan under 'Email me']

If it can be done in non-Muslim contries everywhere else in the world, why can't it be done in Eire??

April 26, 2006


One word to describe Psych- 'interesting'
It's different, it's kinda vague (still for me) and it's kinda weird.
We talked to a couple of patients today... even taking the psych history is different.
I'm still working around my head with these differences

Last year I did Psychology of Healing as my option
And now coming to Psych, the same feelings arose
These mood disorder, anxiety disorders etc, I really like to discuss it from Islamic perspective...
And things like autism, ADHD, schizophrenia- would that differ from depression, or anxiety disorder if you look at it from Islamic point of view?

April 25, 2006

Jump to: Faisal Tehrani

When I watched Sepet, I was shocked by the 'blunt'ness in some of the scenes
When I saw Gubra's poster, I was thinking 'how can this picture being displayed so freely like this?' (despite the claim of Malaysia as negara Islam (HadHari))
Well, I have no intention to watch it anyway...

Jump to Faisal Tehrani: Gubra Yang Sesat Lagi Menyesatkan

p/s- Yes I do not watch much tv or movie anymore... the only tv show that I constantly trying to make an effort to watch is House

April 21, 2006

Practiced knowledge (And you call that 'maturity'?)

Sat with our Psych Consultant this morning- he interviewed a patient. When it finished, he looked at us and asked, "What did you see?"
The last person in the group gave the exact answer he was looking for- 'a man, middle aged...' Spot on!

When you see a patient- before you look for any psychiatric signs, look at the person- how the person is, the personality and the IQ. And do this to every patient, not just to psychiatric patient, because people tell story- even just by looking at them, before they even say a word.

When the next patient came in, that was what we did.

Walking into the Meeting Room in Curtin Uni this afternoon, I was late. When I went inside, the first thing that came into my mind was 'how unprofessional!'.
Perhaps now was the time to practice the knowledge I learned this morning. So I listened, watched and scrutinized.

'No wonder...' Sometimes I'm just amused with the level of 'maturity' some so-called people around the age of 20s showed.

And so the says 'Female is usually 3-5 years more matured than males of the same age' must be true. How sad- when especially men are supposed to be the leaders.

April 16, 2006


Sms to Singapore from Perth: 15 April '06: Maria, comp kau ade skype x?
Sms to Perth from Singapore: 15 April '06: Skype takde lah tapi nanti aku try check skype for mac

'Hello?? Maria? Kau boleh dengar tak?'

Boleh, boleh.... tapi aku takde mic... kau cakap aje la, aku type

'Laa.... ye ke? Pegi beli la nanti'

Esok aku beli

'Okok... kita sambung...'

Dah bercakap untuk kesekian lamanya (rasa pelik bercakap sorang2, macam org gila je), terperasan ada background sound entah dari mana... Macam bunyi tv... tapi dr bilik aku tak boleh dengar tv di luar unless kalau kuat sangat.

'Maria, cuba kau cakap... aku rasa macam aku boleh dengar suara kau la!'

'Wani? Hello?'

'Maria!!!! Aku boleh dengar kau!!!'

'Clear ke suara aku?'

'Clear! Clear!! La... kau ade mic la dekat komputer kau!'


'Ape ni... pegi check manual guide la, cari kat mana mic komputer kau...'

Gelak lagi

April 10, 2006

It's not about you. It's never about you!

Lepas lunch. Masuk lift untuk ke Ward 9B- my port.
'I want to be a good doctor'
Tiba-tiba the thought bermain dalam kepala.
How ironic... dulu-dulu masa sekolah menengah rendah beriya-iya tak nak jadi doktor- 'even if it's the last job on Earth, I won't even consider it!'

I've come a long way to be where I am now. I still have a long way to go. Make the most of it.
Tak tahu dari mana semangat itu datang, tapi kini di alam 'clinical years' membawa satu semangat- keep on trying!
Bila teringat forwarding email tentang artikel Mengapa Harus Begini: Krisis Sikap di Institusi Kesihatan, teringat kata-kata Prof. Geoff Riley (Associate Dean- Student Affair) on the very first day of our clinical year:
"It's not about you. It's never about you!"
Hanya semata-mata anda pelajar perubatan, it doesn't make you any higher than a nurse. Respect is the keyword.

Tertarik dengan ayat ini: "Mengapakah masyarakat Barat yang rata-rata tidak bertuhan, mempunyai etika kerja yang baik? Mereka berhemah dengan pesakit, mereka bersikap profesional di dalam kerjaya."

Indeed it is very true. Benda pertama yg di-drill dlm kepala kami everytime jumpa patient: Introduce yourself & gain consent!

I want to be a good doctor. And it is not about me. It is about the patient. Above all, they are human first before they are your patient.

April 5, 2006

Rotations and ABG

I'm nearing the end of my second term. Next week will be my last week in General Medicine. If you are wondering how the term works in Clinical Years of Medicine, it's totally different from the rest of undergrad programme where the year is devided into 2 semesters and you have inter-semester break in Winter.

With Medicine, on 4th Year, the year is devided into 5 major terms (well, for UWA anyway). The first term has is 4 weeks. It's the Intro Term (or what we called Core Clinical Methods). I was in Freo Hospital in this term. We had one week Nursing Attachment, learned to take blood etc., practice history taking and doing examination. No objectives, no assessment in this term. Like the name suggested, it's an intro on clerkship rotation that we will have in hosp. I had the chance to watch Endoscopy a few times with this. Oh, this term will no longer be there starting next year.

2nd till 5th term last for 8 weeks each. Here on, we start on Clerkship Rotation, where students are attached with a team in a hospital, and they'll learn all relavent and practical stuff depending on their rotation. With Rotation, what I mean is the different field. In 4th Year, we have General Medicine, Psychiatry, Surgery and Specialties (which is devided into Infectious Diseases, Ophthalmology and Geriatric). Oh, we do have regular lectures too. Our lectures are usually on Thursday afternoon.
And yes, PBL (Problem Based Learning) is still on. But don't fret, PBLs are more relevant starting this year seing on how we are now in Clinical Years, hence the approach is a little bit different, but more relevant and insteresting.

At the moment, I'm in the 7th Week of 2nd term. My Gen. Med. rotation in Royal Perth Hosp. is almost finished and I'll head to Charlie Gairdner Hosp. for Psych in 3rd term. After 3rd term, we have a one week vacation (more like a short break) and then the start of 4th term.

So you see, we do not have Easter Break, we do not have 3 weeks Winter break and we do not have end of semester exam. What we have is End of Year examination and that one week break in June.
Oh, and sometimes we do enjoy free hot chocolate or coffee for staff (or free flu vaccine shot last month) at times- only for those in RPH though...

I did my first ABG yesterday, courtesy of my new Resident and the willing patients. ABG stands for Arterial Blood Gas. Hence as you can see, instead of taking blood from the vein, like they usually do for blood test (in which another skill that I love doing), this is the blood taken from the artery. Usual site is from your radial artery- at your wrist.

I'm with the Respiratory Team, so we do quite a bit of arterial blood gas with most of our patients (literally I think all). With ABG, we usually check for the blood pH, partial pressure of oxygen (pO2) and partial pressure of carbon dioxide (pCO2).
As you can guess, Respiratory deals a lot with lungs and its function, so we wanna see what's the level of oxygen and CO2 of a patient: what type of respiratory failure do they have, do they need extra oxygen, do we put them on ventilator, is the CO2 level too high etc.
Of course, you also get other info like potassium and sodium level... from there, you can deduce the acid-base balance in one's body <- take note of this you 2nd years!

And I don't know why I am explaining all this in this entry...
If you are that interested, I may make this weblog a partial med-log; in case I inspire you on med, or my explanation helps you to understand med more

April 2, 2006

"KepadaMu kami mengadu, kepadaMu kami berserah"

Borak dengan Angah via YM sambil buat assignment
Hazirah: che wan jatuh lagi
Hazirah: ni angah
Wani Z: ye?
Wani Z: bila?
Wani Z: masuk sepital ke?
Hazirah: baru tadi...
Hazirah: umie called
Hazirah: ambulans br ambik che wan g hospital

My mistake soon afterwards for telling some stuff that has been going on in the hosp past few days... Angah mintak stop cerita... mama tambah risau... *Great job Wani, for making mom more worried !!
Hazirah: along...
Hazirah: angah nak g mandi lu la...
Hazirah: juz in case kena blk kl
Hazirah: talk 2 u later...

Nak balik KL gak... sibuk belajar Med di sini... nenek kat M'sia tak terjenguk saat2 mcm ni...
"Ya Allah........."

Nasi lemak, anyone?

Semalam pagi Intan, Yan & Shu datang
Nak ambil kereta merah ('yang unggul' <-quoting cik intan)
Sambil-sambil menunggu, buatkan breakfast utk mereka
French toast and hot milo
Tetiba Yan menyuarakan hasrat nak makan nasi lemak
Pastu semua pun rasa nak nasi lemak..
Last-last janji kat Shu utk masakkan nasi lemak utk dia before end of year..
Ye la.. dah final year kan?? Bila lagi nak bagi Shu makan nasi lemak

Malam tadi rasa nak buat pancake
Teringin nak bawak ke rumah budak-budak Mara
So pagi tadi kami breakfast pancake a.k.a. lempeng
Makan ngan honey, cicah ngan gula
Tetiba entah siapa ungkit pasal nasi lemak balik
"Jom buat nasi lemak! Makan lunch kat sini"
Beriye-iye aku ngan Ima
Last-last kami berdua pergi Broadway Shopping Centre beli barang

So tengah hari tadi kami makan nasi lemak
Hilang kempunan semua orang

Authoress note: Visit-

March 29, 2006

Touched- to the core of my heart

I smiled, I grinned, I cried
Watching a 24 mins video- "Turning Muslim in Texas. People Reverting to Islam in Texas"
Watch it- you may understand how I feel

Can be found at:
Visit the original site:

Authoress note: Asma' my sis, jazakillah for the link!

March 28, 2006

Sister's Gath & Annual All Ladies Formal

(Click on the pictures to see enlarged version of the 'em)

Selalu tengok Abadi dan Huda mempromosikan aktiviti-aktiviti in Eire... Dari dulu teringin nak letak those kinds of adds dlm blog... And now my wish comes true!

Sister's Gathering
"The Challange of Being a Muslim Woman in the West"
Talk by Sr. Aminah Mah, followed by a group discussion, prayer and then lunch
Date: April 1st 2006
Time: 10 a.m. - 1.30 p.m.
Vanue: Social Science Seminar Room 2.02 (opposite Oak Lawn), UWA
Organized by UWA Muslim Student Association

Above: Annual All Ladies Formal Special: Breaking Down The Barriers.
Date: April 19th 2006 (Wednesday, after Easter Break)
Vanue: Willow Pond Reception Centre, Canning Vale
Time: 5-10 p.m.
Cost: $45 (MWSC members) & $47.50 (non-members)
*Bookings essential. Tickets available until Monday 10th April
Organized by MWSC Youth SubCommittee

So, if you're in Perth, come and join us!

March 26, 2006


Just when I need to talk to my mom, she's gone to Penang with my sis!!!
I'm sad...

Mom, if u r reading this,
"I'm restless."

March 23, 2006

"Better than you"

I saw a patient to take a comprehensive history from her.
Had to come twice due to classes in between
Second time I came, we ended up talking about Sweet Valley High,
and about how some men can cook better than women!

"Sorry to interrupt you ladies, but you better keep this conversation just between the two of you", a male nurse who were making the next bed popped his head

The patient and I looked at each other.
We laughed.

So, not all men want women to know that some do a better job at cooking eh??

March 18, 2006

Entry For Last Weekend

Last Saturday, Fhad and I joined International Student Service (ISS) with their trip to Pinnicles and Lancelin (for sandboarding)
If you are international student studying in UWA, and you think that AUD 25 that we charged was too expensive, then I'm sorry to say that that's the cheapest rate you can get. Normal price with other tour agents is around AUD 160.

Plus, ours include lunch! And halal one too... (ISS has two Muslim committee members this year- Din n myself) Here are some pictures:

The ISS team
Pinnicles-looks like the desert kan??
Sandboarding at Lancelin

Then, on Sunday, WA Petronas Club (WAPEC) held a BBQ for undergrads sponsored scholars i.e JPA, MARA & Renung at Mill Point, a spot next to Swan River.
The turnout was quite good actually. They planned to have games after the lunch.

Suddenly, "I apologize to non-Petronas scholars, but this game is only for Petronas scholars. For non-Petronas scholar, maybe you can sit at the side and cheer for us."
That was... rude! (sape la punya idea ni...)

And hence the non-Pet scholars decided to go home early (some girls went to the city to get some bubble tea). Ye la... what's the point on staying kan?? Nak suruh jadi pom-pom girls??

So, jangan la melenting lepas ni kalau orang kata Pet scholars ni sombong, ye???

Fortunately I have to leave early to go to the hospital.
Met these girls while waiting for the ferry- to get back to the city.

"Wani, kitorg decide nan tubuhkan 'Non-Petronas Scholars Club' la lepas ni." Said Miss T (nama terpaksa dirahsiakan), one of the girls.

Gelak. "Buat la, buat la! Pastu jgn lupa invite Wani. Anggap la Wani ni bukan Pet scholar"

Authoress note: More pictures on

March 10, 2006

Port Zaman Kanak-kanak Riang

Baca entri-entri untuk tugasan 1 JURING II untuk ahli geng ganjil.
That made me remember this:

Teringat zaman 3 tahun terakhir sekolah rendah. Masa tu my mom still worked; 2 orang adik paling kecil dihantar ke nursery. Aku, Angah and Apit (yang join kami bila dah cukup besar) dah pandai jaga diri di rumah menjelang cuti sekolah panjang.

Bosan di rumah- tak tahu nak buat apa. Al-maklum la, tak de playstation or sega game kat rumah masa zaman tu. Tapi anak-anak melayu zaman aku masih lagi kreatif- dalam cara kami sendiri.

Kebetulan kanak-kanak ribena zaman tu around age aku jugak. Neighbour sebelah kami ni, bapaknya kerja di RTM. So kami bukak port kanak-kanak riang di living room rumah aku- tayangan free cerita-cerita Allahyarham Tan Sri P. Ramlee and series cartoon Casper. Kami siap tutup langsir sliding door depan and tingkap pagi untuk menimbulkan suasana dalam 'wayang'.

Waktu tu la phrases like "Siapa kau?!" "Aku King!" "King apa?" "King Kong" amat popular among kami para pe'mimic' terkemuka.

Bila parents aku balik satu petang, depa terkejut tengok ramai budak-budak dalam rumah. Ada la dalam 20 orang kanak-kanak riang depan tv depa.

Season wayang habis. The next day, kami terpaksa moved the port outside the house- repercussion dari insiden the day before. Tapi takpe, budak-budak zaman aku masih lagi kreatif and innovatif. Porch rumah aku jadi port macam-macam outdoor aktiviti- especially end of year bila musim hujan bermula, semua berkumpul rumah aku.

Sebab rumah aku was the only rumah on that street at that time yang awning-nya penuh, menutupi the whole porch.

Season paling lama is season getah- every year mesti ada. Aku antara 'emak' yang paling popular. Eh, dah nama pemain expert- mesti la jadi leader kan?
Another most popular season is 'rounders'. Outdoor game ala-ala baseball. Takde kayu besball, cari kayu panjang ala-ala besball pun jadi. Aku pun tak tahu dari mana kayu tu datang sebenarnya. Portnya bukan di porch aku, tapi depan rumah aku.

One year, season rollerblade ambil alih season getah. Tiba-tiba semua budak around rumah aku ada rollerblade! Port kanak-kanak riang beralih ke rumah neighbour aku yang lain sebab porch rumah dia was on the higher ground- turun bukit la konon. Tapi tak ramai yang ber-port kat situ sebab only budak-budak 'advanced' yang pandai control speed and break je dibenarkan ke sana.

Kami mengamalkan safe outdoor activity.

Akibatnya, semua still lagi berkumpul di porch and jalan depan rumah aku! Lagipun 'bukit' depan rumah aku tak se-steep 'bukit' porch neighbour aku. Ke-steep-annye dalam 0.01% je.

Bila dah masuk sekolah menengah, port kanak-kanak riang tiba-tiba menghilang. Aku dah masuk satu alam di mana aku start 'malu' depan budak lelaki.
Sekarang ni, everytime aku bediri di porch rumahku or di jalan depan rumah ku, terbayang-bayang suasana meriah zaman kanak-kanak ribena kami.

Word count: 444 (yg warna biru aje). Oleh sebab aku bukan contestant JURING II, aku dibenarkan melanggar any peraturan yang JURING II ade...